the ways in which words reveal and conceal emotions

long blinks

nothing can be uncharacteristic because everything is characteristic because we are all sorts of things (anything?) and that is so exciting! don't hold back!

why do i want to cry instead of learning about things i care about? don't hold back?

god i am a mess.

the way the world looks from under the covers

it is really hard to have secrets. and to know who will understand those secrets. or try to understand? it is terrifying to think someone might get it and not care.

i think mostly i am able to be a pretty optimistic person because i like to do what i want and i like to think hardly anything is impossible and because unexpected things can be so important. and i think that some other people must think similarly and that is a very hopeful thing. it is a very scary thing to think that i could be mistaken about other people thinking similarly. or any of it.

is this familiar

warmer weather is nice because birds chirp and ears are warm and headphones don't seem so necessary.

i have a twelve-disc hank williams cd set. that is a lot to work through. i wonder about it sometimes, but i have a beautiful little life. i am going to move my beautiful little life to new york soon and i hope it will be a beautiful life there, too.

i like talking about things and pretending about things more than i like a lot of actual things. spending impossible lengths of time in booths and on sidewalks and voices wear out. i've worn a lot of holes into socks and tights this year. that has never happened to me before. i have a lot of things to mend.

four beds within one week and my shoulders are knotty. i thought about working on preparing some future things before tucking in for the night but i am feeling heavy eyelids so soon.

oh good. my sweet hearted friend from home called with all sorts of happy things to tell me.

pieces of the internet

slowing down heartbeats

wauw

...and find the scratches on our thighs from adventures through tall grass and sleep soundly at night.