nightstands

[ radiospike's flickr ]

Books and lamps and glasses (both kinds).
Nightstands get the best friends.

[ tnatsni's flickr ]

writing, art

"Writing is considered a profession, and I don't think it is a profession. I think that everyone who does not need to be a writer, who thinks he can do something else, ought to do something else. Writing is not a profession but a vocation of unhappiness. I don't think an artist can ever be happy."

A Vocation of Unhappiness, Georges Simenon (1903-1985)

I like the idea of an imperative to write and create. I think that need is true, because I think that need is a need to express and make connections. But why the unhappiness? Art is always a bit imperfect, a bit short in communicating what the artist wants to convey. But that drives the art, right? Always moving towards ideals (and failing)? With art maybe that ideal is something like significant form (I disagree with him and the Bloomsberries a lot but holla atcha Clive Bell, significant form is kind of cool) but I don't see why we don't live our whole lives trying for impossible things, knowing they are impossible. If I can live my life knowing that it will always be imperfect but that I am working towards figuring things out (and never will), doing good things (and also lousing things up a lot), then that still feels very happy to me. If attempts to connect are even slightly successful, that is a big deal. I think that feels very happy to me.

free time

Now that I am graduated and unemployed I have a lot of time to think about things that maybe do not deserve too much thought. I have already contemplated writing essays on female community in "Practical Magic," and the sincerity at work in blogs like Sexy People.

I would really like to choose a home and settle in so that I can discuss these things with friends instead of with a non-existent internet audience.

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even if she had the time, to save her moments
in words, the way she kept buttons in a box,
and was assured of the support to write them all down.

— “The Famous Jewish-Russian Poet Termanovsky” by Philip Terman

thanks for this

Short film by George Wu, inspired by Kazuo Ishiguro's Nocturnes.


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I want to sit in sunny rooms and read about books all the time.
I want to sit in sunny rooms and think about hands and creating and texture and evident paint and connections.

rest

originally uploaded by chocolee.

photos of beds really hit something right right now.