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I guess I don't understand why anyone would think they can't do what they want to do.
I think that makes me seem kind of aggressive sometimes, that I like to do what I want.
I think that, within reason, that's ok.


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One of my favorite things right now is unexpected honesty. I have no idea how to explain that here.

extracts

Sometimes something hits really well but it is so hard to get an excerpt to make sense to anyone else. I guess I don't try very often, anyhow. How do you go about that? Write it in a letter?

Hello,

We do not know each other very well
But this is meaningful to me
And I hope that might mean something to you.



"Here is some halo
the living made together."



With love,
PS



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I would like to eat pomegranates and hide under the covers for a while.

I walk around a lot thinking about mundane things I will probably never tell anyone else.

The Chiffons

The Chiffons - He's So Fine

Choice YouTube search results for "He's so Fine - Chiffons":

-3 actual Chiffons videos
-3 covers
-"Little Joe Cartwright: He's So Fine! This is a tribute to the heartthrob from the Ponderosa. ENJOY!...Little Joe Cartwright Bonanza Michael Landon He's So Fine Chiffons"
-1 Clay Aiken fanvideo
-"Olivia knows Elliot is sooo fine! EO!...svu eo eilliot [sic] olivia chiffons hes so fine"
-"Clips from DQMW [Doctor Quinn Medicine Woman] with Preston"
-"Matt Carmody played Adam Cartwright in the Bonanza prequel, The Ponderosa. These are screen captures from the pilot episode."
-"Not Just Another George Harrison Tribute. Ironically, before I even knew anything about it, I thought this song reminded me of George because, well, HE'S SO FINE!!! Now, I know all about George being sued for plagiarizing 'He's So Fine.'"
-"James Spader - He's so fine"
-"Mr. Spock clips"

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It is strange how much I am averse to doing things I don't want to do, and how much I dislike settling, since right now I really feel like everything is moving very quickly and kind of without me and I really just would like to be settled for a while.

It has been windy a lot lately and sometimes I hop up in the air during big gusts, just in case. Sometimes it really feels like it could carry you a bit. Soon it will snow and then these things will be slightly more grounded, I guess.

Homes are funny things.

Once, in Delhi, my friend Brittany's auntie's son-in-law told her about some sort of elaborate detective show and she thought it was weird but didn't have much else to say so she said "Oh, that's funny." He very seriously replied "Crime isn't funny, Brittany."

I suppose secondhand stories are sort of boring. "I guess you had to be there" is one of my least favorite sayings.

I am trying to be less selfish but it is very tricky. I don't like having to explain myself so often. I think that is a big part of why I like literature. The best kind doesn't have to explain anything or even make any sense.

My nose is running.

dance dance dance

Having troubles telling how I feel
But I can dance, dance dance
Couldn't possibly tell you how I mean
But I can dance, dance, dance
So when I trip on my feet
Look at the beat
The words are, written in the sand
When I'm shaking my hips
Look for the swing
The words are, written in the air

Dance
I was a dancer all alone
Dance, dance, dance
Words can never make up for what you do

Easy conversations, there's no such thing
No I'm shy, shy, shy
My hips they lie 'cause in reality I'm shy, shy, shy
But when I trip on my feet
Look at the ground
The words are, written in the dust
When I'm shaking my hips
Look for the swing
The words are written in the air

Dance
I was a dancer all along
Dance, dance, dance
Words can never make up for what you do
Dance, dance, dance

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(This is sort of a repeat post but I really don't know if I will ever tire of this song. Plus, Bon Iver.)